Psalm 51: 1 Have mercy on me, O God, according to your steadfast love; according to your abundant mercy blot out my transgressions. 2 Wash me thoroughly from my iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin. 3 For I know my transgressions, and my sin is ever before me. 4 Against you, you alone, have I sinned, and done what is evil in your sight, so that you are justified in your sentence and blameless when you pass judgment. 5 Indeed, I was born guilty, a sinner when my mother conceived me.
This passage is resonating today for me. Yesterday evening I was on my way to a meeting at the church when I collided with the car in front of me. I was looking to my left at a car that looked like someone I know and I looked too long. When I turned to face forward again, traffic had come to a complete stop. I, however, could not stop in time. Boom. So dumb. Ugh!
Mine is a 2009 vehicle so it’s nine years old. Meaning it’s not worth nearly what it was new, so I’m afraid my insurer may total it. I love my car. Some wonderful memories in that car. It’s a model that is hard to come by and a color scheme I love. True, no one was hurt, and yes a car can be replaced, but I’m still very frustrated with myself. Why in the world did I look so long?! What was so important?!
“Indeed I was born guilty, a sinner when my mother conceived me.”
It’s not necessarily a sin to wreck a car, but it is a form of stupidity and needless pain/loss. Today’s psalm reminds me that I was born with a defect of sorts. A tendency to do the wrong thing at the wrong time in the wrong way. It’s a problem that is as old as humanity. Lord, have mercy on me. A sinner. A perpetrator of dumb mistakes. Amen.