John 13:21 After saying this Jesus was troubled in spirit, and declared, “Very truly, I tell you, one of you will betray me.” 22 The disciples looked at one another, uncertain of whom he was speaking.
We’re getting close to Jesus’ crucifixion and resurrection in the gospel of John. Jesus was telling the disciples that one of them would betray him, then indicated Judas as the culprit. The part of the passage that sticks out for me is “After saying this Jesus was troubled in spirit…”
It’s assumed by many that Jesus knew how his story would unfold far ahead of time. He knew what would happen, how it would happen, and who would be involved. Maybe. But as I read the gospels, Jesus strikes me as one for whom the story (at least the details) is unfolding in real time. It’s possible that Jesus was troubled in spirit because he was finally getting clarity on how he would die and who would betray him. And as the Father revealed this to Jesus, it broke his heart. Betrayal would not come at the hands of some outsider, but from one of his closest brothers. Judas would hand Jesus over – for a few pieces of silver.
“Jesus was troubled in spirit…”
Somehow these few words endear Jesus to me. He was human in a way I understand. He loved and he laughed and he grieved and he cried. Lord bless those today who are troubled in spirit. Give us grace to rest in you. Amen.